A Working Mommy Minute...How I Made It Through The Day

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

The Many Onesies of Mini Me!
Can I blog through my feelings for a minute?........

I am a working mom...it's just that simple. I have a 3-month-old Professional Diva-in-Training, and I returned to work today after being on maternity leave since June. My heart was shattered this morning when I dropped Mini Me off at day care. SHATTERED! For the first time since she arrived, I felt what my fellow Professional Diva Mamas call "mommy guilt." How was I going to make it through the day!? Why was I feeling like this!? Why did I feel like I was abandoning her by returning to work and entrusting a stranger with her care!? I don't think that I will ever find sufficient answers to these questions, but there is one thing in which I am absolutely certain: I aspire to be as great of a working mother to Mini Me as my mom was to me. 

You see, my mom has always worked...always! But even though she worked hard every day, I never felt abandoned. I never felt as if I was missing love...my mom never skimped on the love! Like my mom, I intend to make the most out of those moments when I am not working. So I will continue to sing silly songs to my daughter as I wash her and get her dressed. I will pray out loud with my daughter after we get in the car and start our journey to day care and to work. I will visit my daughter at day care during lunch time whenever I can, even if it's just for a few minutes. I will tell my daughter about my day on our drive home from work and day care, even if it is a one-sided conversation for the first year or so. I will play with my daughter when we get home as we settle into our evening routine. I will make the most of every moment...I want her to tell her friends that her mommy never skimped on the love! 

I am a working mom, but I will not stop me from being a fabulous mom! I accepted the challenge to be a fabulous mom this morning as I sat in the parking lot of the day care with a shattered heart. I accepted it! That is how I made it through the day.

Tomorrow: Day Two...let's go!



9 comments:

Roxanne said...

I hate disqus. I always lose my comment!

Healthy Hair Diary said...

It only gets a tiny tiny bit better, my daughter is nine and I still sit in the car a few minutes after dropping her off.

Krissy said...

This is my most favorite post!!!

Roxanne said...

I remember feeling physical pain when I went back to work after my first. Actual physical pain, and difficulty breathing. But it does get better. When you have a child, you tend to get unsolicited advice. Here's mine: You don't have to be perfect or always wave the banner of working mom or let that define you. Having a baby is hard enough, it's a hell of a lot of work. I just think we women and the media make it harder by feeling that we have to be fabulous and make it look effortless. I'm just a cyber woman but from what I've heard you say, you seem like you have good values and high standards and that you want what's best for your kid. So my advice is to take care of you and your mini-me the way it works best for you. You'll be fine, but you don't have to be superwoman. It'll get alternatively easier, harder, different. Hell my kids are teens and I still find myself crying in the car. I think it's part of motherhood. Welcome! You've got plenty of support here. Blog, tweet and cry it out. We're all here! It's gonna be fine.

Rose's Daughter said...

oh yes, that Mommy guilt. I had it at first, and then I remembered that like you, my mom worked full time and I never ever felt like I was abondoned. I still spend time listening to Pookah and talking to him and listening to what he has to say. When I get home, I give him attention and love. On the weekends, we spend lots of quality time together. It's hard, but it's still possible to be a good working mommy!!

The Pro Diva said...

I fully believe it's possible! But just so you know, I fully intend to continue leaning on you veteran moms for support! LOL!

The Pro Diva said...

Thank you so much for this. And thank you for the encouragement on Tuesday. It meant more to me than you know!

The Pro Diva said...

Thanks Krissy Poo!

The Pro Diva said...

LOL! I'm guessing this is a constant mommy feeling. I guess I have to get use to it!

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