|The Many Onesies of Mini Me!|
I am a working mom...it's just that simple. I have a 3-month-old Professional Diva-in-Training, and I returned to work today after being on maternity leave since June. My heart was shattered this morning when I dropped Mini Me off at day care. SHATTERED! For the first time since she arrived, I felt what my fellow Professional Diva Mamas call "mommy guilt." How was I going to make it through the day!? Why was I feeling like this!? Why did I feel like I was abandoning her by returning to work and entrusting a stranger with her care!? I don't think that I will ever find sufficient answers to these questions, but there is one thing in which I am absolutely certain: I aspire to be as great of a working mother to Mini Me as my mom was to me.
You see, my mom has always worked...always! But even though she worked hard every day, I never felt abandoned. I never felt as if I was missing love...my mom never skimped on the love! Like my mom, I intend to make the most out of those moments when I am not working. So I will continue to sing silly songs to my daughter as I wash her and get her dressed. I will pray out loud with my daughter after we get in the car and start our journey to day care and to work. I will visit my daughter at day care during lunch time whenever I can, even if it's just for a few minutes. I will tell my daughter about my day on our drive home from work and day care, even if it is a one-sided conversation for the first year or so. I will play with my daughter when we get home as we settle into our evening routine. I will make the most of every moment...I want her to tell her friends that her mommy never skimped on the love!
I am a working mom, but I will not stop me from being a fabulous mom! I accepted the challenge to be a fabulous mom this morning as I sat in the parking lot of the day care with a shattered heart. I accepted it! That is how I made it through the day.
Tomorrow: Day Two...let's go!